The Thoughts in Elizabethy's head

I thought she'd come back

2004-06-24T07:02:20Z

I realize now how horrible of a person I have been lately.
As far as I know, it's ruined my life. Mistakes can be fixed, but the pain will always be there afterwards. Thats the thing I'm the most scared of, how will I handle this all after its done?

I read some things tonight that upset me, I shouldn't let them. It's been so long, I thought all this was done. Maybe its only the begining. Its hard to truly get over someone when the only thing rubbed in your face is the fact that other then him, a boy has never truly liked you. It hurts.
I shouldn't let it hurt, but how can I stop it. Everytime I try to, it ends up horrible...ie: Me being used by the boy, boys are too loose with their affections. Gaby is so wise, she totally knew what she was talking about.

On another note, I know I say this every entry...but I really miss Gaby. I laugh with her more then anyone else, Cathy is a close second. I miss her understanding my humor, and talking about girlie things with her. Wah, end girlie emo rant about missing Gaby...

Back to emo rant about boys.
Why can't awesome hot boys with Rico Suave moves live in Appleton?!?! ;) WHY!?!?!?
"cause that would mean that true love exsists"
Walker makes me smile. teehee

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-26T21:51:00

2004-05-27T02:55:35Z

add my new LJ name everyone.

heres a link to the journal. Comment on the first entry and I'll add you

Fortheworkforce is soooooooo last year =D

funniest convo ever

2004-05-26T03:57:16Z

Me, Gaby and cathy went up to GB to hit up Charlotte Russe (I love that store!!) anyways, we decided to get ice cream afterwards and had the funniest conversations with the boys that work there. Every time we go there the boys hit on us, tonight was no exception. Gaby screamed that I had big boobs to the "manager". haha I love that girl. I'm going to miss nights like these.

We have the funniest Jive-esque conversations ever.
Me and gaby were talking total Jive about the future and fellatio and every girl getting a tongue ring and pube extentions. Oh man, sounds like we're on acid 24-7

noway

one week till I'm free

BF to the 3rd power= Best fucking friends forever

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-25T16:02:00

2004-05-25T21:06:37Z

I've never been so stressed out in my life
Work, the play, finals, boys, friends leaving, grad party, graduation, money issues, lack of job after Thursday, algebra tests, FINALS, passing algebra, passing english, boys. Jesus

when will it end
oh yeah, thats right. June 3rd.

toe stubbing, falling down, running into walls.

2004-05-24T17:59:35Z

wow.

I would put another entry about how i'm going to miss my friend so much in this next month, but you've all heard it already. But its all I think about anymore.
hard to believe that this was my last monday at Appleton West for the rest of my life.
How did I make it through 4 years without killing myself. I was thinking today, and if I was a freshman again like right now I'd murder myself.

I'm sick of this thunderstorm bullshit

holy crap its 1....work time.
4 more days of those little guys

I'll continue this later.

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-23T00:41:00

2004-05-23T05:42:43Z

psh
Shoot Bang Dead didn't even play. Pissed.
Textbook traitors made up for it though, they were awesome.
Those Milwaukee kids are so funny

June 5th is too far away

come...on....and...yeah...

2004-05-22T15:31:24Z

yesterday was fun, till I had to go home and sit alone for the next 5 hours.

Me and Cathy got lunch and went over to Saul's house for Saulapolooza...which was so fun. I was sort of sad that I only heard the last 30 seconds of Nick, Pat and Casey's band..oh well. Face for Radio played right as it started to rain, it was so fun. Saul actually managed to stage dive into the crowd...whihc was just funny. Then Isaac got shocked and they decided maybe they should move their shit into the garage.

I saw snuggle Bear, gaby was so funny about it. "he doesn't like this house to house shit, you're making this harder for him! just let go beth!!"
hahah, that bear is so freaking cute, how can I not love him

Sarah's grad party starts at 2 and then I'm going to a shoot bang dead show with Travis. OH YEAH! :)

Should be a awesome day!

Most likely to still go to concerts when I'm 65

2004-05-21T15:56:14Z

SO last night sure was eventful.

Me and Gaby tagged along with Teresa to do a senior prank with some other kids from our school. They zip tied twine to the lockers and made a huge ass web out of nearly every hallway. You had to do a army crawl to get through. Pretty awesome. A bunch of boys came later and dropped bb's on the 3rd floor, crickets too.
Alot of people were getting really upset at other people for doing things that same night cause it made it look like OUR group did it. I was pretty pissed at first but after I left I was like whatever, it doesn't matter.

The only thing I'm still pissed about is the fact that when I got to school this morning, everything was torn down. I guess they all had to clean it up which sucks a. cause now I feel bad for leaving and b. cause we spent a long time on that.

keep in mind that all of these were taken halfway through. It was 4 times worse then this when I left.
it would have been great to sit back and watch all these kids try to walk through it, and try to open their lockers. wah..

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-19T22:05:00

2004-05-20T03:11:58Z

after seeing Gaby's entry about leaving for college...I became really sad.
I dont know what I'm going to do when the two people who make me the person I love being are not even in the same zip code as me.

I just dont know if I'll beable to find anymore friends like them in Milwaukee, I'm scared of losing the real me.

I lova you guys <3

snuggle bear...and other events of the past few days

2004-05-19T23:05:12Z

Last night was real fun. Me and Gaby went shopping for sexy outfits, found some sweet ass stuff. We were driving around and ran into Issac and Aaron so we went with them to take pictures for their CD. I still dont get the Whore House thing. I fell in love with Issac's snuggle Bear. Me and Gaby stole it and took pictures around town and at Beaners...here's the results :)

driving around

snuggle bear loves liz!

snuggle bear got violated by a drunk carnie

aw

Me and gaby played catch with hiim in the hallway today too, then we said our goodbyes. Issac needed his bear back :(

on another note...I have such a busy few days coming up
friday I have a cookout or something at Saul's House...I guess Lmo and The Murfies are playing. WOO...then I have a party at bethanys that night
Saturday I have graduation stuff and then a show in Milwaukee
and Sunday I have some concert of Geoff's or something and church.

lameo

well..I know there was something else important that happened...but I dont remember. I'm gonna go buy my shoes, make my grad invites and other random stuff and then go to bed cause I rock. later.

after 15 seconds of trying to delete a period...I realized it was a spot on the compute screen

2004-05-18T02:53:20Z

wow tonight was fun. I love "the babies" too, they are all way cooler than half of the senior class.

We were all chilling outside on the corner of Beaners, I'm shaking my thang and then a car of boys honks at me and screams something vulgar-esque. I'm all like oh snap, they better not come back. Everyone was like nahh...they wont.
well..they did...several times. So Gaby starts screaming at them (so funny) and then they come back around again and totally moon us. I've never laughed and screamed so hard in my whole life.

Then we're driving around and rat totally hits this car, the look on that poor kids face was sooo funny. Gaby starts screaming ITS NOT BAD ITS NOT BAD and we take off. No damage :)

Me and gaby listened to Mexican love songs on the way to rats house screaming I LOOOOVEE YOU! at people...inside joke. so funny.

Then we chilled on Rat's dock and dancing and talking about sex and stuff...haha.

They played us some of the greatest and best songs I've ever heard. So funny, I'm looking forward to the show thinger on Friday. Me and Gaby might sing our special song...haha

I hope they all come to mine and Gaby's grad party!! :)

alright, usually i dont update in that much detail but i felt I had to since it was such a fun night. Lots more happened, but those were the funniest parts.

PS. Half day on Friday FUCK YEAH (I'm a worm)

I'm not O fucking kay

2004-05-17T02:51:52Z

how long is it till September?
fuck Appleton

All I have been doing today is sleeping, I'd like to keep it that way.
Goodnight

Fuck yeah I'm a worm! get off my worm terf you fucking asshole!

2004-05-16T19:25:06Z

If you'd like to donate 5 dollars to the "Buy Gaby, Bethy and Cathy 500 pink Flamingos" fund leave a comment

(Must be a student of Appleton West Highschool to apply)

Come...on....and.....yeah.....

2004-05-16T04:55:24Z

Today was crazy fun

We're the official dancers of college ave! Come. on. and. yeah.
I laughed so hard today :)

I realized how much I missed Sarah

I also just realized how bored I am.

www.purevolume.com/thechiodosbros/music2

I can't stop listening to their new song

coast to coast
the high seas echo
ITS NOT YOU ITS ME!

"hahaha we're like....the Hippie....the Scenester and the sad fat kid who eats everyones pancakes!!"
One of the Funniest things ever said by Gabriela Varela

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-15T00:14:00

2004-05-15T05:16:21Z

Cash Check......CHECK
Sleep.....CHECK
Go to GreenBay with Cathy.... CHECK
Go to Cigar shop....No Check
Get involved in illegal activities....CHECK

Sad girls for life

2004-05-14T20:50:03Z

Friday
cash paycheck
sleep
Go to Gb with Cathy (hopefully)
Go to the Cigar shop to see Gabriela
Get involved in illegal activities

Saturday
try to sleep in past 12
Clean room
more illegal activities?

Sunday
see Ernie! that is, if he still wants to come :)

BABAY!

2004-05-13T23:45:28Z

alright, so I seriously can't wait until English class tomorrow. I love that movie!

haha :)

Tyler sent me 3 new MCR songs and I only like one of them, C'mon MCR you could have done better then that. At least we got one kickass song out of it all though. I can't wait for that cd to come out either. Hopefully the rest is way kickass. We'll see...

But now I must ventue off with Gabriela to the mall/smoke break/cathy break/icecream break? woo yea!!!!

my nap was amazing, I had a dream about me being a ninja. More info on that to come.

Ps Tyler and Bethy jr were in my dream, it was awesome

alright bye LJ

Stuck

2004-05-13T03:04:53Z

So I had a interesting time tonight. I left my house around 6:30 to drive around, it sort of looked like rain and I knew that my wipers had been sucking it up the past few days but I decided that they would beable to manage. I pull onto Richmond off of Glendale and it starts raining harder then I've ever seen before. ever. My wipers were already sucking and I could barely see as it was. THEN....IT HAPPENED. The blade completly fell off of the wiper arm thing. It wasn't doing anything other then scraping the metal on my windshield so I had to turn it off. I couldn't see worth shit when I turned onto Wisconsin. Luckily I was able to make it into the sentry parking lot just before it started to hail. I tried to put the blade back onto the arm but this is the best that I got.

Then I sat in the parking lot of Sentry for a really long time waiting for someone to come get me. Then the part of the lot that I was in flooded, I opened my door to see how deep the water was and it completly covered my foot.
Everywhere is flooded.

Then Cathy saved me. She's my hero!!

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-12T15:38:00

2004-05-12T20:41:10Z

It's PERFECT out today

Some may argue that it's too humid but whatever...IT'S PERFECT! :)

I hope all of the ladies had fun at Great America today, I'm so jealous!

I just realized that I've worn a pink shirt 4 days in a row, haha woops.

Pink ladies for life!

Operation Orange Tootsies

2004-05-12T02:34:21Z

O
M
G
I love you guys

I can't even begin to explain how much I'm going to miss nights like these.
<333
I've always known that my friends were awesome, but sitting around talking and laughing about school, orange feet, dolphins and vaginals made me realize how amazing everything really is.

I'm going to have to start a list of The best moments of Highschool before I graduate on the 3rd! Jesus...

On that note. Everyone who reads this, come to my grad party on May 30th 1-6 :)No excuses!!!

Ps. Bethy got her Hurr cut. Pictures soon to come??

by the way, I thought this tied in nicely with the conversation I had with Gabriela and Catherine tonight at Tom's

You are heroin. You are among the greatest of
rushes, but so debilitating it's a wonder you
can even take this quiz. GET A JOB!!!

What Drug Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

hahaha

alright, here's the deal you fucking asshole

2004-05-10T17:54:04Z

I think I'm the only person in our english class that actually sort of enjoys Pride and Predujuce(sp?) Seriously.... whateverrrrrr. alright.

Tomorrow I have to go work at the salvation army or something for stupid Hero. Christian isn't going and theres no way Holly can get her permission slip in by tomorrow seeing as how she'll be GETTING it tomorrow. So I'm alone with the Hero freaks.
I'M
SO
EXCITED
....

Lord have mercy! I love the Bled.
That reminds me of the night gaby and I kept screaming AMEN and LORD HAVE MERCY and it was really funn for some reason... GABRIELA...we must hang out soon. <3

ps. No regrets about not going to prom :) I wish it was September already

In Milwaukee

2004-05-09T16:32:03Z

Nothing to do in the dorms when your brother is still asleep. bah

Last night was fun though, at least more fun then doing what I was planning on. Ie...sitting home alone being a loser. I met some of Travis's friends who were all really fun. We just hung out in the dorms and drank beer. We were going to go to a party, but we weren't going to know very many people there, plus it was off campus so we're like eff that. I met Angela, Trisha and Spencer who were all really awesome.

Now I'm sitting here waiting for my bro to wake the fuck up! We still have to load some crap into my car before I leave for a-town again.

This weekend has made me even more anxious for college life. Plus now I know a few people too. I just keep kicking myself in the ass for not bringing some of the leftovers from my party. I could have made big money off of that. Oh well. I'll save it for Cathy's bday party :) Hopefully my mom doesn't decide to CLEAN MY CLOSET anytime soon. Cause...then I'll probably get murdered.

well im gonna go do something. I dont know what. I dont want to leave his dorm cause I'll get lost
whatevahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

la la la

2004-05-08T17:08:36Z

Last night was really fun. I realized how much I missed hanging out with Heidi. Hopefully we'll hang out more now.

Tonight might be interesting.
I have no clue of how to get to the UWM campus.

Everyone is going to be getting ready for prom in a few hours, I'm jealous...but then again I'm not. I just hope I dont regret this later.

I'm starting to dispise this journal, just like alot of other things in my life.

fortheworkforce @ 2004-05-07T12:52:00

2004-05-07T17:53:35Z

Today was just as great as yesterday
I'm hanging out with Heidi tonight, that alone makes me happy cause I never see her anymore. Hopefully Teresa's show will be fun

:):):):):):):)
wow.
13 days until finals

:)

2004-05-07T02:17:09Z

Today was a great day, nothing great happened. It was just great.

Yet, I still know I have to be on stand by for depressive moods 24/7. Sometimes I think something is really wrong with me.

But maybe I'm just ignorant